Feelings & more feelings

A few nights ago I was at a bar with a friend talking about women we had crushes on and what happened with those crushes. Aside from a couple women I have had huge crushes on that lasted a couple years (I think I had a case of limerence with one) I have not had many crushes over the years.

The last time I noticed having crushes was in college which was over ten years ago. I have noticed most dates I am not super excited about and that many of the women I see seem to lack that special something that makes them stand out. Maybe this is part of the lack of crushes. Maybe my expectations are too high which could also explain the lack of crushes. Maybe I have not been dating as much because I am a one woman only type guy and this could aslo explain the lack of crushes.

I noticed that when I do have a crush I am powerless to limit my thoughts & warm fuzzy feelings towards the person. The world seems brighter, the sun seems lighter, and the world is a better place. I don't believe that I need a crush or a date to have a positive out look on life but I forget how having a crush opens up a way of looking at life with a romance that embrfaces it in such a way all of it is positive.

I enjoy being single and having only myself to worry about but I also hate being alone and do want to marry some day. I have been single long enough I wonder if I will ever have a crush on a girl like when I was in college. I am sure I will...I have noticed around a few women that the world seems brighter, the sun seems lighter and my world is a better place. Now I have to ask them out and figure out if we are compatible.