I do those things I said I would never do

When I was a kid I had the die hard friend mentality. You know what is & what it means. It is the type of mentality where you believe you will always be there for you friends no matter how old you get or where you live. You believe you will always stay in touch with your friends and you believe that no matter what happens in life you will always want to talk with or be connected to your friends. We have all thought those types of thoughts and they are beautiful and pure and noble but they what we think when we are young.

Something happens to us, where we loose that innocence and that love & that passion. Maybe after years of seeing how people treat each other unkindly or unjustly we loose that passion. Maybe it is after we experienced negative or unfriendly behavior in friendships or from coworkers or people we interact with. Maybe it is because we realize that as we get older we don't have to be involved in every aspect of other people's lives as we are so busy with our own lives and keeping them afloat. Maybe I am no where near the reason why and I should stop guessing.

Today while walking I bumped into a Friend from college that I knew over twelve years ago. We reconnected a year ago and have not called or emailed. We even joked about how we still have each others business card and stare it thinking I need to call that guy. The truth is we aren't going to call each other.

Growing up I swore I would never do that or be that type of guy but the reality is I am. I don't want to reconnect with certain people from my past. I think I realize that whatever friendship & connection we had was not strong enough to last over the years so why rekindle a weak connection? Or maybe we weren't all that close? If I see him a year from now I probably won't even say hi.